Gayani Jayathilake

My post-meditation takeaway from this morning was this. What came to mind was a vision of the present moment with rough edges that glitched out the past and future. Imagine a stamp with jagged edges. Inside the stamp is an image. The present. Like that.

As I tried to focus on that one stamp image in front of me thoughts did arise. And once again I noticed how each and every one of them belonged to the past or future. A meandering thought with meaning perceived from knowledge, sentences, or words I had learnt in the past. For those thoughts too I used the stamp vision. Beyond the glitched line the past and future crumbled away into nonexistence.

As I looked closely the present moment was all there was. The now. Within that image were birds. Trees. Wind noise. A car whizzed down the hill. I heard it go to a distance and vanish. Beyond the jagged edges of the stamp the car became a past moment that faded away. One that did not exist for me anymore.

I heard construction noises nearby. I put down words to call it things. To label the noises. Because I knew what they were called. I had learnt them somewhere from someone. Hammering I called it. Thumping. Drilling. But if I had learnt that drilling noise to be called crying then I would have thought that. I hear crying nearby.

I slowly realized how the present moment is not a moment to rush or wipe out. Occurings occur within the present moment. The stamp. It is a place of awareness, not judgement. Because likes and dislikes both pass by through the glitched walls of time anyway. Let it appear, let it leave, let it appear, let it leave. I noticed how the anchored awareness remains.

I just experience the moment through my six senses eyes, nose, ears, tongue, body, mind. and let go when it leaves beyond the glitched line to the past.